“I’m caught up in Your Presence
I just want to sit here at Your feet
I’m caught up in this holy moment
I never want to leave
Oh, I’m not here for blessings
Jesus, You don’t owe me anything
More than anything that You can do
I just want You
I’m sorry when I’ve just gone through the motions
I’m sorry when I just sang another song
Take me back to where we started
I open up my heart to You
I’m sorry when I’ve come with my agenda
I’m sorry when I forgot that You’re enough
Take me back to where we started
I open up my heart to You”
– Cody Carnes
I found this song just a few days ago, and I have to believe that God knew when I found it what it would mean to me. These lyrics are scary similar to the lyrics I’ve written out to the Lord in my journal. Like, where did he find my journal and change my lyrics to avoid plagiarism?!
These were my literal thoughts when I first listened to this song.
It’s so cool how God brings things like a song to you right when you need it.
In all honesty, I haven’t been spending devoted quiet time with Jesus everyday for quite some time. I’m not proud of it and I am learning how to take steps to give myself some breathing room to have that needed alone time every day. But when I first heard this song, something woke up inside me.
I needed the reminder that my heart only wants Jesus, and nothing else. I apologized to God for coming to Him with my agenda and for begging for blessings when I talk to Him.
I reminded myself that Jesus doesn’t owe me anything. I didn’t realize what I was really praying for until I looked back at the past two months of my life.
I’ve been asking God to fix everything.
Like… how did I slip into this endless cycle of telling God He needed to mend and rebuild all of the x,y,z’s n my life…?
I’ve now started focusing on what I’m praying for, instead of babbling out what I want to be fixed in my life.
I’m learning to focus more on what it looks like to be still with God; I’m discovering what it looks like to just spend time with Him without bringing my agenda and list of problems with me.
Maybe you find yourself in a similar situation.
“God is a fixer. He does mend every single broken piece BUT he’s not in the business of only answering requests without changing you somehow.”
You’re constantly reaching out to God and asking Him to fix everything.
God is a fixer. He does mend every single broken piece BUT he’s not in the business of only answering requests without changing you somehow.
If your friend came to you everyday, multiple times a day, asking you to fix this and that and the other thing over there, after a while you may not be friends.
God will always be there for us. But if He only answered our prayers and demands every single time we begged Him to fix something, what would we learn? That God does whatever we want Him to?
No, that’s not how that works.
God still does miracles, signs, and wonders; He is absolutely still God and He is on the throne for the entirety of eternity. He heals. He restores. He fixes. He comforts. He shows up. But not on our timing.
“God still does miracles, signs, and wonders; He is absolutely still God and He is on the throne for the entirety of eternity. He heals. He restores. He fixes. He comforts. He shows up.”
Wow, Rach, way to be so churchey.
God has everything about your life already organized and designed for your good. He has every second of every minute of every hour of every single day of your life perfectly planned out.
He’s not into answering our requests just for the sake of it.
God is absolutely into growing us and changing us in His Presence so we walk in maturity and intimacy with Him.
That to me sounds so much better than knowing I serve a God who does whatever I want Him to do.
I am so incredibly thankful it’s the other way around. I am not God, but God is God and He knows what He is doing.
For now, I’m going to fall in love with Jesus all over again everyday. I’m going to do my best at whatever God puts in front of me.
I can let God satisfy my every need. I can let God figure out everything I can’t.
Maybe you will too?