“...Jesus came and stood among them and said, ‘Peace be with you.’ Then He said to Thomas, ‘Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side. Do not disbelieve, but believe.’ Thomas answered, ‘My Lord and my God!’ Jesus said to him, ‘Have you believed because you have seen Me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” John 20:26-29
I read this passage as I was sitting in pre-service prayer at my youth group. As soon as I walked in I had a million thoughts going through my mind.
“I want to want to be here but right now I really don’t want to be here.”
“I want to go outside and talk with my friends.”
“What’s wrong with me?! I always want to pray, even come early to do so.”
“What happened to my normal self?”
I spent what could have been a very impactful 35 minutes of prayer inside my mind, thinking about who knows what. I could have engaged in prayer and worship. But instead I subconsciously decided to stay parked inside my mind.
Still to this day I have no idea what happened. But at the very end of prayer, right before we came together to circle up, the Lord spoke this to me:
“It doesn’t matter what you feel. It matters what you believe.”
“Your faith should be standing on your beliefs, not your feelings and emotions.”
“Are you for what I am doing or are you going to watch?” The Lord asked me. At that moment I decided I was going to engage because I wasn’t having any of this “missing out” stuff. As long as I had the choice to engage, that is exactly what I was bound to do.
Let me ask you this question.
If the Lord was trying to show you something in your life and engage with you, are you too caught up inside yourself to even notice?
Think about it and be honest with yourself. For a moment, choose to put everything in your mind aside and ask God what He wants to say. Ask Him what He wants to do. Ask Him to show you something. God wants to engage in conversation with us. He doesn’t just want to hear about our problems. He wants to interject and go back and forth with you. Engage in conversation with God. He has important things to say and the best ear to listen.
Let me ask you another question.
What do you believe?
At my Church’s winter retreat back in February, this was our theme. The first few pages in my Bible are now covered in my belief statements.
Here are some of them.
I believe in the power of the Holy Spirit.
I believe in the fullness of joy.
I believe in giving God my all.
I believe I don't have to strive for love.
I believe God is the only one who can satisfy me.
I believe God holds promises over my life.
I believe in God's miracle working power, signs, and wonders that strengthen my faith.
I believe God is who He says He is.
I believe God is the air I breathe.
I believe God doesn't need my help but instead wants my heart.
I believe that God is not misleading.
I believe God is fully present with me.
I believe if I don't quit, I win.
I encourage you think and talk to God about what you believe, specifically about Him and about yourself. Ask Him, “Wow, what do I really believe?” I promise, it’s eye opening and it strengthens your faith. Write them down in a place where you see them on a daily basis. For me, that’s the front page of my Bible. Every time I open the Word I’m reminded that I believe God is who He says He is. I’m reminded that I believe every promise of His is absolutely and completely 100% true. I’m reminded that I believe His timing is perfect.
We don’t need to go into the 10,000 reasons why you need to know what you believe. That’s a whole other convo for another day.
But I encourage you to seriously start talking to God. I will be over here doing the exact same thing. Let's get to know our Heavenly Father a little bit better.
All the love,